freestyle 7/26

  sometimes, just sometimes the night encompasses me and I find myself recounting moments in my head that I was certain my heart had forgotten I remember the sound of your laughter Or hear the tone of your voice in the quiet the memory of the way you looked at me or how comforted I…

Flip This House!

i just want to run away. or send them to live somewhere with monks or ex-military types that will wake them up in the middle of the night to scrub toilets and baseboards with toothbrushes and the like. i don’t want to mommy right now.

on being a writer who doesn’t write

i’m sorry. when i don’t write i feel guilty. and with the pseudo-abandonment of this blog, i have been feeling like shit for over a year now. this is my public promise to do better. to stop using Facebook as a blog forum. to spend as much energy visualizing topics to write about as i…

fight.

I’m going to figure this out. This lonely in the midst of love… This uncertainty when things aren’t that bad… I know what I want… I’m fighting for it everyday…… For me. For us. The minutiae isn’t as cooperative as I would like… But I know the Universe has my back… Even when I don’t…

What About My Sons?

Am I the only mother who feels like her children aren’t scared enough? Like I’m not teaching them survival skills? I have two sons. Twins. One has a socio-emotional learning disability where he doesn’t pick up on social cues. It’s hard for him to get sarcasm or read tones of voice. What happens when the…

Inboxes from Hell: my life on Facebook

7/14, 6:03am Strangerdude: Hello! I would love to add you to my group 7/15, 8:58am Me: Hello. who are you? and what kind of group? 7/15, 10:31am Strangerdude: Hello. The name of my group is called women who only want 3some’s. I host parties both stateside and internationally. I personally hand pick all the members…

Daddy

It’s Father’s Day again. My dad was the greatest storyteller ever. It’s taken me this long to realize I probably get that gift from him. I miss him. There was never a moment in my life, whether I saw him every day or once a year, that I felt unloved by my father. My father,…

The biting of the dust and such.

Dear New Dude, Sooooo. Hey, hey how are you doing? I haven’t heard from you on any regular basis since our first date about 3 weeks ago. Haven’t seen you either though we’ve made plans a couple times. You seemed nice enough. Funny, engaging, we seemed to have quite a bit in common. We shared…

Love, Maya…

“I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn’t just hold—that’s ego. Love liberates. It doesn’t bind. Love says, ‘I love you. I love you if you’re in China. I love you if you’re across town. I love you…